A Man of Contradictions

I live my life one step at a time, taking care to enjoy each vision, each caress...yet I fret about tomorrow three days ago.  Look at me, you can never read my emotions by my smile.  Look at me, can you read my emotions in my eyes? I am leaping for joy - crying at times in the dark - loving all around me - yet lonely at the same time.  I love myself for the person I am - yet I chide myself for not feeling the ultimate freedom of living freely. Freedom of living free - I like that yet I question the logic of the wordplay.